i hate my mom

i hate my mom she doesnt give two shits about me! FOR NO REASON today she called me a stupid fuker a stupid bitch a douche bag a shit head a dick head than she said you never stop eating why are you always eating stop eating eery three hours i dont give a shit how you feel why should i care how you feel ! i mean i dont feel like i have a mother anymore...shes just making me feel worse and worse about my self... i lost confidence in myself i feel like im not gonna fit in at my new school... i just want my old mom who loved me and cared for me and didnt bribe me to shut me up was back. now whenever i have a problem she says get over it and doesnt give two shits about it... but when i was little she used to say oh im sorry tell me whats going on and she used to help me..... i mean i get jack shit at home and when i went to school at bellport middle school i got jack shit all i got was my feelings shattered and ripped apart and ow thats what i get at home! i dont deserve that!!! i always care and help her out with her problems! does she do that for me? no! she gives me fucking jack shit except for bribes and heart breakage and she doesnt get it!! she doesnt listen! and when i tell her mom you and i both know you treat me like shit. she goesballistic and says no i dont you fuking leing bitch! and i feel like i just got shot in the heart knowing my mom doesnt love me... she doesnt care how i feel and she bribes me so ill leeve her alone and not say anything! i miss my old mom...i want her back... ill talk to you all later...ttyl,raven