Im so sorry...

im so sorry... About everything... Please forgive me about everything... I couldn't stop myself.. Thinking about having powers was the only thing that made me feel like everyone else.... I had nothing to fall on and when I started with my powers I could not stop... I felt so open so diffrent... I had nothing since everyone hated me because of my anger issues.. I got made fun of all the time and no one cared about me... Even my mother... I just needed something to make me feel like I didn't have a fucking asshole depressing hatred filled life... no one loved me.. I just wanted to feel like somebody... I could never have someone to hold.. Everyone had someone to love in my skools except for me.. I just wanted to have someone and that was all the people in my mind... Vincent valentine made me feel like it was real... And I couldn't stop wanting it... I kept with it and I loved it.. I drew and worte about myself with so much power and so much anger. I didn't have my mind anymore and i couldn't have anyone... I wanted my old life back when I had friends and my mom loved me and I had a father and my brother and I never had it back. Finally I had someone to hold and I messed up big time.. He broke up with me and my whole self got screwed up.. I never went outside I hated everyone.. I couldn't love anymore.. All of my emotions I could barely show.. I wanted to have it all back and once people started to ruin my life again I went insane. Everything went wrong with me.. I wanted love so bad. I missed all of my friends... I wanted to have a normal good life and I never could because I was diffrent and I hated so much... Please I don't have anybody please...